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do you know what it's like
to lose someone?
no i don't mean
death by accident
or departure from
a relationship

i mean when their
heart just grows cold

the man who sits
in front of me
lost his wife to an
incurable disease
he hasn't talked
since july

he wonders
why did she leave him here
with no one to want as dear
he says "oh, god!"
and "help me,
jesus,
take this pain away!"
and relieve this

i walk down to the 5 & 10
and hear stories that start
"remember when..."
and then realize i'm old

it was the saddest night
of my life to wake up
in the dead of night
sweating from a bad dream
and then finding out
the dream came true

the man puts his face
in two wrinkled hands
and starts to cry again
as the man kneels on the floor
he wonders what he's living for
and how long

and when i get older
will i still remember
how it felt to be younger?
oh, i fear for that day

and when you look into my eyes
will there still be that surprise
that we both felt so long ago?
so long ago

everything changes
everything changes
everything changes,
but why must i?